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It has taken me a long time to write about one thing that I tried because thinking about it stirs up a lot of strong feelings for me. I need to talk about it, however. I tried to teach. I taught in one charter school and one public school. I succeed at times, and didn't at others and briefly chronicled my findings in a different blog.

I loved many parts of teaching. I loved when students made personal connections to what they were learning. I loved that both my students and I were eager to go to after school tutoring. I loved watching students gain confidence in themselves. I loved planning  silly engaging activities. I loved determining what would be a good extension for my early finishers. (I picked coding) I loved recommending books and getting book reviews back. I loved playing around the world when we were lined up well and had a moment to spare. I really did love a lot of different things about teaching.

I'm a hard worker and I wanted to push myself every minute for those kids. I didn't have a work/life balance at all, and I went to bed exhausted every night. I came in every weekend to better the learning environment in some way. I practically stopped drinking water so that I wouldn't have to go the bathroom during the day.

Emotionally I carried my students' struggles as if they were my own. How can I better assist in their learning? How do I make sure that they are eating? If I wasn't emotionally taxed enough the administrators at my schools set up meetings with data analysis of standardized tests to function as a new stressor. Walk throughs would be conducted frequently without any useful discussion following. And me- I carried that with me too.

I gave up everything when I tried teaching, and I crashed with a the speed and force of a rocket. I wasn't the first and I won't be the last. Teachers are amazing people. The ones that persevere and continue teaching do so in spite of low wages, superhuman expectations, and communal disrespect. It wasn't for me, and in the era of ineffectual country mandated high stakes testing I think many others will turn away from it. Kudos to those who don't.

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It is ok to try things. However, trying is not worth a mention if you do not persevere at it. Cue my new favorite gadget: The Passion Planner. It gives you wings! No, not that. It gives you passion! Things I have tried since getting a Passion Planner: Flossing, Meditating, Running a 5K, Coding, etc.

The Passion Planner is a Planner, with add ons. It has space for doodling. It has space for writing what you are grateful for each week. It has a to-do list and a separate work to-do list. However, most importantly it has a goal brainstormer with monthly check-ins. The Passion Planner is organized to help you reach the goals you actually care about. It was created and funded by a kickstarter because people want help with this. But does it work?

The Passion Planner works so incredibly well! I enjoy creating a new color scheme each week as I take the time to fill in my goals and regularly scheduled programming. One friend bought the planner concurrently and raves about it, and another one bought one based on my recommendation.

Personally, I created this blog because it was one of my goals. I had reminders written in the planner to update my posts, and now my blog has updates. I've had reminders to floss, and now my teeth endure strings of pain. I had reminders to practice running and I actually ran during my last 5K (which anyone who has run/walked/pushed a stroller during a 5K can tell you is not mandatory.) I wanted to write letters to people and receive letters. I've done so so frequently that I've even gotten some back!

You are a Flamingo in a flock of boring ass penguins. Thanks Jackie :)

I even use it for craft projects. When Erin demanded that I recycle my magazines if I want to get new ones I put a collage of my favorite images into the planner.

How do I like mine? At this risk of alliterating, I would say that the Passion Planner is my prized possession.

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A goal of a true Renaissance woman is to try new things. However, for many things you have to try for longer than one day in order to claim that you have really "tried them" in a way that implies effort.

Take flossing for example. I have been told to floss every 6 months for the last 25 years of my life. So in honor of year 26, I have decided to listen. I decided that this year I would try to floss everyday. And like all lofty goals- this one flopped. 

So, I decided to try for a month. They say that it only takes 21 days to form a habit. (Although apparently "they" is wrong) I even added it to my planner, along with my other goal for the month, meditating. This resulted in the obvious portmanteau for all of your health needs: flossitate. 

Flossitate. 

I piggybacked my habit onto brushing my teeth as was suggested in this article, and decided that I would politely ignore the good advice in this article and this article.

I made a (secret of course) inspiration board on pinterest with inspirational photos for a great flosser. 

See comic source here

Yet I'm still only flossing 80% of the time. The verdict? Though your dental hygienist strongly recommends it, I do not. Flossing is painful, and results in bleeding even when you are past the time period where that should have subsided. It breaks and snaps back at you and can cause frequent wincing reactions. It requires daily effort and I do not condone it.*

*These are the opinions of this author and do not reflect the opinions of dentists, dental hygienists, or anyone with actual knowledge of this field. 

Edit: For really strong advice on picking goals that matter I recommend reading this.